I'm sending you hopeful feelings, J. You know, writing is therapeutic. Do you ever write about the specific cause and how that person, group, or situation affects you? Not necessarily with intent to publish (at first), but rather as if you are speaking to a confidant. As time passes, I think you'll develop a bolder voice and feel less drained over much less time.
I've followed your writing revelations for several years. Clearly, you are growing and have many achievements, both professional and personal, including those with your family and friends.