I found this to be a therapeutic article, or tool I suppose. I switched over to my notes several times.
I happy to hear you broke that chain of abuse when it came to your relationship with your children. I did the same and am very proud of it.
My abusive stepfather was a pedophile. He did things like smack my head while pointing at a 6 year old kid saying why don't you look like that. I was 9. That part of me is a blur. I can't remember if that incident was before or after he raped me. It took quite a while to convert that negative energy.